Sunshine & Stress

Yesterday I was told I looked like a flight attendant. Hmmm…

Though the comment won’t stop me from wearing the dress again, I’ll probably refrain from wearing it through an airport while pulling a wheely bag behind me.

So here’s the question… did I look like a  flight attendant?

Jimmy has this new theory - people who are relaxed live longer, so he’s going to lead a more relaxed life. He then points out that by refusing to make decisions and just be totally chill all the time, I will stress out more, causing me to die earlier.

Nice guy.

Here’s to leaving a more relaxed life. Here’s to more sunshine and less stress.

The past few months have been chaos. Looking back, I don’t think I was as busy as I thought I was at the time. That’s kind of disheartening. Why? Well, because I thought I was so busy I haven’t seen a lot of my friends in quite a while and lost touch a bit - granted they are all wicked busy too, or sotheythink.

Today was the co-op bbq, so Nick, Ryan, Finch and I all went with the intention of meeting up with Nikki and Shannon but that was a bit of a fail. I’ve missed them. I realized that today. After stealing extra free food but failing at decorating margarita glasses, Ryan and Finch came back to my apartment after months of being gone. They even commented that they used to “own and run the place.” We just hung out and were ridiculous taking Cosmo quizzes, but it put everything back in perspective - I have amazing friends who I love, who get along with Jimmy unbelievably, and who I don’t want to lose touch with again. As sad as it makes me, I need to remember that Jimmy won’t be here every weekend but they will and even though it’s not the same, they are important, and run, and simply ridiculous children. Our friendship has grown as we have become more similar (Finch has a secret girlfriend now! haha) even if it’s not exact.

I love them and I miss them. It’s just different. They are irreplaceable but they cannot replace Jimmy.

Comic relief and proof they love Jimmy more than me - after reminiscing on the time Ryan scared me so much with a vevuzela that I cried, Ryan and Finch decided to vevuzel Jimmy’s ear via phone call…but Finch had performance anxiety.

Jimmy and I went on a whale watch!

I had a Living Social deal so we went when he came up for a teaching interview - and yes, I did just throw that in there…JIMMY HAD AN INTERVIEW AND TAUGHT AT CLASS. (fingers crossed so tightly it’s painful that he get’s the position - one and done!)

The whale watch was really cool. It was 4 hours total but about 2 1/2 to 3 hours of that was getting to and from the location. There is a  reserve (equivalence of a national park) running from Glouchester to Provincetown where whales and seals feed in the summer months.

We saw one seal out there and a whole bunch of whales. It was wicked. First you would see them in the distance blowing water from the blow-holes. Soon the whales were coming up right next to the boat (like literally 15-30 feet from the boat). When the whales would come close you could tell where they were before they surfaced. When they were coming up “bubble rings” would form and the whale would surface in the middle of that ring a few seconds later. It was indescribable. I was breathless when they would go back on a deep dive and bring their tales up first.

And no boat trip is complete without a Titanic picture…

I have been blog MIA basically forever, so it’s time to do a quick recap and then hopefully I’ll stay slightly more on top of this…

Co-op is going great. I get along with everyone in the office really well and I don’t wake up dreading the day. I’m sure I made the right choice when it came to which position to take. I’m very happy here. I must say though that as far as big-girl careers go, my two co-ops have shown me that I’m closing in on what I love but haven’t quite figured it out. For me there is just something missing – that end result/product and a certain level of excitement. I love social media and pr/marketing in general but it doesn’t end. No matter what the career is, there will always be more work to do, which is fine, but each project needs a complete date and PR/marketing more-or-less doesn’t have that. I am starting to look at event planning firms for a possible internship for next semester. I’ll be super busy, but the more and more I think about event planning (even the un-glamorous side), the more excited I get.

The NLDC spring showcase went off beautifully, though we were sad there was only one show this semester. I loved Gina and Laura’s dance so I am so beyond thankful I got into it. As hard as the move was for my lack of upper-body strength, I LOVED the handstand countdown we did in it. :-)

The show was a little bittersweet though as I’ve gotten close with a bunch of seniors – Laura, Erin, Christina, etc. So, after the show we all went to Conor’s for a gathering.

Speaking of seniors, May is the month of graduations…and here come my emotions…

Jimmy graduated. WHAT?! Yea! I cannot believe it! Not in the “I cannot believe you completed all your credits” kind of way but in the “OMG you’re an adult and I’ve known you for so long” kind of way. I still get really emotional when I think about it. But back up a tiny bit…

EC Senior Week concluded with Commencement Ball at the Fairmount Copley Plaza on Thursday, May 10^th. I was really sick (like flu sick) and felt horrible the whole time but since Jimmy refused to go if I didn’t go with him I faked it as best I could. I loved my dress and shoes and accessories, and I was soooo looking forward to the dance, so I was sad my body didn’t feel up to it. Jimmy wore a 3-piece-suit and bowtie – dapper.

I was the first to wish Jimmy a Happy 22^nd Birthday at midnight – which is good because I probably would have had a fit if I wasn’t. Since we were on the bus back to EC the entire bus sang to him… how sweet. And on cue, Jimmy turned to me and said, “so how does it feel to be dating an older man?” Classic.

Jimmy’s birthday consisted of Tasty Burger, some tv, Hooding Ceremony (where he got to carry the banner, making his day), Baccalaureate Mass, and dinner at Conestaro’s with his family, Alex, and Sam. Of course, in all great timing, this is when I got massively sick again and could feel a fever coming as I sat at dinner.

Saturday, May 12, 2012; 11am – Emmanuel College Class of 2012 graduated.

I cannot believe all this has happened. It’s even weirder that now I’m here in the city without Jimmy, not knowing exactly if or when he’s coming back. It’s lonely – but mostly because I put myself through a mental ringer. Also, because I’ve been with the Class of 2012 for 16 years, I feel like I’ve crossed that boundary too. That I am now an adult as well. But I’m not. I’m still a kid. I still have a year until graduation. That is beyond bizarre for me and a little depressing. I’m ready for the next step in my life and don’t want to be left behind from everyone I’ve ever been close with.

Here’s to fingers crossed and new beginnings. Congratulations to the Class of 2012 and Happy 22^nd Birthday to the love of my life.